101 Things About Woo-Woo

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I'm a momma to twin boys and gave birth to an angel baby girl late August 2006. The angel would have been the birth control mishap baby for me and NS, my Navy Sweetie, who is the greatest man I think I've ever met. You'd never know my boys aren't also his boys, and I love him for that. We got married April 2007 and had another baby boy March 2008!

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Another 101 Things about Celebrate Woo-Woo...

1. I am living back in VA after having lived in FL for 7 years.
2. My divorce from IFKAMH was final on 1/19/2006.
3. I celebrated that night with a ladies' night at Club Paris.
4. I miss FL a lot.
5. I hate living in cold weather.
6. VA is not cold to those that live in more northern states, but to me, it gets too cold.
7. I spent over 6 months trying to find a job that I thought was right for me.
8. I took a position as a veterinary receptionist a few weeks after I moved here.
9. My boys got sick, and then I got sick, and animal hospital was not very understanding.
10. I quit because I cannot work in an environment that expects me to not take time off when I'm contagiously ill and required to deal with people throughout the day.
11. I then started a telemarketing job about 6 weeks after leaving the receptionist gig.
12. I quit after a week and a half because I just couldn't see making a liveable wage there.
13. I would have had to sell $4000 worth of ads every week to make the amount of money I needed to make to live.
14. It didn't seem likely based on what I was experiencing nor from what I saw on the sales boards.
15. I wasted a few months of job-hunting time trying to get a position with Verizon.
16. The job was recommended to me by an acquaintance whose daughter works there.
17. They had me taking a battery of tests over the span of about 6 weeks.
18. Then took months to call me for an interview.
19. The acquaintance kept telling me to just be patient because they really needed people.
20. She even told me that I should be in the next training class at one point.
21. I had to reschedule my interview appointment after a trying return from FL following my divorce.
22. And although they said it was lack of experience that caused them to reject me, I am fairly certain it was the rescheduled interview.
23. I say that because the night before I got the rejection call, I got a call from the acquaintance saying I shouldn't have cancelled the interview.
24. I explained to her the same thing I'd told the interviewer about having to reschedule the interview, not cancel.
25. I know that close-minded attitude was a sign that I would never have been happy working there.
26. I am now employed as an instructional designer.
27. I have been there for just over a month.
28. I have already become known as "the girl with the shoes" because of my vast array of shoes.
29. And I am quickly gaining a reputation for a unique and numerous purse collection as well;>
30. It is the kind of job I am very comfortable doing.
31. I create and update training materials.
32. We are assigned projects that need training materials created or updated and then complete them at our own pace working towards a deadline.
33. It is a low-stress, independent position.
34. I still plan to enroll in an online university very soon to major in Information Systems, with a focus on networks.
35. With that degree I hope to get a job making enough money so that I can "retire" somewhere between 40-45 years old.
36. I say "retire", but I really just want to open a whale-watching tour business at that point in time...I'm just hoping to not have to care about it making a ton of money.
37. Even though I no longer want to be a marine biologist, I still love all things ocean-related.
38. I went to the Aquarium here while I was still unemployed, and I had such a wonderful time and was so disappointed that I got there too late to see the Whales IMAX movie.
39. I have a lot to learn before starting that tour business.
40. I need to learn to operate a boat.
41. Even if I end up having someone else to do it for me, there's always that chance that something could happen and it would be left to me to get the tour group back to shore.
42. I need to decide where I'm going to have this business and learn what types of whales they have there.
43. Then I need to become an expert on those whales.
44. Although I would love nothing more than to be an orca guide, their densely populated areas are cold, and that isn't going to make me happy.
45. I could see myself staying in this part of VA or moving farther south to one of the Carolinas or to a Gulf state, like Texas...sorry, no Georgia in there, just not enough ocean.
46. I'd say my preference would be those Gulf states, but I don't know how many whales make it up there.
47. My best bet for Gulf states would probably be southwest FL, which sounds devine to me, but I fear it is not affordable enough for my lofty dreams;>
48. NS, my boyfriend, knows all about my lofty dreams.
49. He thought it was very random when I told him about it.
50. We have been dating for over 5 months.
51. It sounds like a longer time than it feels to me.
52. It now shocks me that IFKAMH and I started living together after 6 months of dating, especially when I realize those six months were basically monthly dates with daily phone conversations.
53. I feel very comfortable having NS in my life, and I don't see myself wanting to get rid of him.
54. But I am very afraid of making any important commitment decisions about him...I'm rather fond of the "go with the flow" way things have developed so far;>
55. I may have to bite that bullet pretty soon, I think.
56. He's planning to transfer to South Carolina as early as next year.
57. That means I need to figure out where we stand before then.
58. I figure I'll start prying for answers after I've met his parents in July.
59. It seems unlikely that he'll say that our relationship will end when he moves. Why bother with the introduction to his parents if he's planning to not be dating me after he transfers?
60. He'd be hard to replace, I'm sure.
61. He's spoiled me.
62. While the fact that he treats me differently from every other guy I've met makes me like him so much, it also scares me because I wonder if he'll change.
63. That fear of men changing is what gives me my commitment phobia now.
64. Most people, including myself, thought that IFKAMH and I would be together forever.
65. But he turned out to be a completely different person than we all thought he was.
66. I wish I could figure out some way to keep him from being involved in my boys' lives.
67. I sort of wonder if that really makes me a good mother for trying to protect them or a bad one for preventing them from having a relationship with their father.
68. I do feel that his continued absence would be what is best for them in the long run.
69. He is in no way a good male role model for my boys to look up to.
70. That is why I have tried to encourage him to be a good father to his new daughter, my sons' half-sister, since he's basically been given a do-over with her.
71. The fact that he seems so indifferent to her, at least when he talks to me, and that he's trying to abandon her makes me incredibly angry.
72. He wants to leave her behind because he's just not happy where he is...how familiar does that sound?!?
73. It seems to me that he is too old to be so concerned with his own happiness over the well-being of his children.
74. I guess that unwaivering selfishness is the major reason I feel he shouldn't be involved as a father-figure for my boys.
75. I also really feel he owes that little baby girl a father.
76. I know what it's like to not have a father in my life.
77. The only man in my life that I considered to be my father was not a good one and was only a presence in my life for about 5 years, 6 at best.
78. I am almost able to share my "father-daughter experiences" with close friends.
79. I don't know why the details are such a secret for me.
80. I feel bad that my mom doesn't know what happened.
81. I don't feel like I should tell her at this point in time, though.
82. I think she may very well be capable of killing him if she were to know what he did to me, and that would solve nothing and would ruin her life.
83. I know that others have been through similar experiences, many of whom have much worse experiences.
84. Information shared on my twoboys4me blog about that time in my life has been a huge step forward for me.
85. But I still can't admit much more than I was a victim of sexual abuse as a child and that introduction to sexuality at the age of 7 led to issues later in life.
86. Most of those issues I never truly came to grips with or began to understand until I started dating as an adult.
87. And then again, I know at least some of my issues stem from the non-consensual sex incident I had when I was 17.
88. I wonder how different a person I would be if I didn't have those experiences from my past.
89. But that doesn't mean I would change my past...because I actually like the person I am.
90. I really hope that my children will be better men than their father has turned out to be.
91. Most of me believes that they can be, but part of me still wonders if there is something in their genetic makeup that can't be stopped.
92. That is because IFKAMH's father did exactly what IFKAMH has done.
93. I hold on to the hope that my faith in their ability to be better will not disappoint me one day.
94. If it did, I feel my faith in other things might falter as a result.
95. Because although I am no longer a religious person, I still feel very spiritual and believe in a higher power and a purpose in life.
96. And one of the major reasons I felt I was given two boys to raise was to put two good men on this earth when there have been so many bad ones in my life.
97. I guess I am really afraid of failing them.
98. I think that statement just helped me realize why IFKAMH's mom is so personally disappointed in what he's done.
99. I'm going to try to lighten this up now...I didn't think I was going to get into anything so heavy when I started this.
100. My favorite food is Mexican. It almost always sounds like a good idea to me;>
101. I am a sugar-addict. Sweet tea, cookies, candy...love it all and definitely have self-control issues with it;>

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

101 Things About Celebrate Woo-Woo

Idea borrowed from a few other blogs I've visited...Melissa's being one:-)

It seemed like a really easy way to get to know someone better, so here it goes...101 things about me, Celebrate Woo-Woo:

1. I am known by a nickname
2. The nickname starts with a "g"
3. My mom doesn't even like my real name
4. She has a nickname for me that starts with "n"
5. I was born in Hampton, VA
6. I moved to Memphis, TN, when I was 6
7. I moved back to Hampton, VA, when I was 10
8. Back to Memphis about 6 months later
9. Back to VA, neighboring town of Newport News, at 14
10. I moved to Florida to go to college
11. I still don’t have my college degree
12. I didn’t find any degrees that interested me enough to spend my time/money on
13. I have two best friends
14. Both are friends I've known since my first year of high school, although weren't necessarily "best" friends at that time
15. I lost my virginity at 16
16. I was on a mission at that time because I had planned to have sex with the boyfriend I had when I turned 16, but he dumped me, and I was too excited about the anticipated experience to give up on having it
17. I didn't have another boyfriend for over a year after my virginity was lost
18. I never had to endure much more than a month without some "woo-woo" during that time, though
19. That next boyfriend would become my husband about two and half years later
20. I met him in a Publix grocery store parking lot while on vacation with my friends
21. We managed to maintain a decent long-distance relationship for over 6 months before finally moving to the same city in Florida
22. He is now the infamous IFKAMH, whom you may read about on the twoboys4me blog
23. I was raped when I was 17
24. It was non-violent
25. I never admitted to myself it was actually rape until I was 20
26. I had felt at least partially responsible until then
27. I had too much to drink, but I know that I said no many times and tried to get him off me
28. After it began, I simply tried my best to enjoy it since I couldn't stop it
29. I was involved with my then-boyfriend, later-husband at the time
30. It is one of the only things I have never told him
31. Probably because the guilt and confusion I had from that night resulted in my giving in to having sex with another guy less than 24 hours later, which only made the guilt worse
32. The pregnancy that resulted in my twin boys was an act of nature
33. I am pretty certain I got pregnant the very night we decided to stop all preventative measures
34. The first pregnancy test I took looked negative
35. I watched the second one that I took a week later as the lines changed color
36. I then realized that the first one was actually just a very faint positive
37. I found out there were two instead of one at what should have been my 10 week appointment/ultrasound
38. I was actually only 8 weeks along at the time, but already measuring further along because of the twins
39. I had suspicions that it might be twins before I knew because of things I'd read about "signs" of a multiple pregnancy
40. I stopped talking to my belly as a singular baby the night that I read those "signs"
41. I actually thought to myself in the shower before that ultrasound, "What if he says it's twins?"
42. I had hoped, initially, for a boy and a girl
43. I was thrilled that it was two boys instead of two girls if I wasn't going to have one of each
44. I gained 70 pounds with my pregnancy
45. I have just in the past month gotten back to the weight I was before I got pregnant
46. I don’t know that I would have lost the weight by now if it hadn’t been for the stress IFKAMH caused in my life that jump-started the weight loss
47. I may want more children in the future although I had only ever planned on having two
48. I am not afraid of the possibility of twins again
49. I never changed a diaper before my boys were born
50. I never gave a bottle to a baby before my boys were born
51. I really want to be a stay-at-home/work-at-home mom
52. Because of that, I do very little "work" when I'm at work
53. I have been at the same company for over 6 years
54. I have been promoted three times since I was hired
55. I get paid well for the job I do
56. The benefits are a big reason I don't diligently pursue other options
57. I find it difficult to explain my job to people that don't work in my company
58. I don't like talking about work when I'm not at work
59. I drive over an hour each way to work
60. I drive a Jeep Grand Cherokee
61. If I could buy any vehicle, it would be a Lexus RX330
62. I used to really want to drive a blue Honda CRV, the original model
63. I have never smoked a cigarette nor tried any illegal substance
64. Although I started drinking alcohol at 16, not legal at the time for me to drink but the substance itself was legal
65. I can count on one hand the times I have been actually drunk, not tipsy or buzzed but drunk, since then
66. My favorite alcoholic beverage is a margarita, on the rocks
67. I only drink water and sweet tea, with a very rare bout of fruit juice, as non-alcoholic beverages
68. Since I stopped drinking carbonated beverages several years ago, they make me sick now
69. I was a lacto-ovo (dairy and eggs allowed) vegetarian for over three years
70. I went back to being a carnivore after too much temptation with the Teriyaki Chicken at Bennigan's
71. I was a waitress at Bennigan's for six months
72. I think waiting tables is too much work for the pay
73. I don’t ever want to work in a job that requires me to serve food again
74. My favorite color is blue
75. My favorite flower is a gerbera daisy
76. I have a tattoo with two daisies on a tribal-style stem on my left breast
77. I got it last year to represent my boys being close to my heart
78. One of those daisies is bigger than the other, just like J is bigger than M, but it wasn’t planned that way
79. I have three other tattoos
80. I still plan to get at least one more
81. I want the next one to be a tribal-style butterfly on my ankle
82. I used to have my navel pierced
83. My mom let me get it as a bribe to get me to go on vacation with her and her boyfriend, whom my friends and I called “psycho-man”
84. I took it out while I was pregnant
85. My tummy is way too stretched to even consider putting it back now
86. I am a terrible house-keeper
87. I can clean really well and make the house look spectacular, but I usually feel my time is better spent doing other things that make life enjoyable, so I generally don’t clean as much or as often as I probably should
88. I never cooked anything not using a microwave until I was 18
89. The first thing I ever cooked was for IFKAMH when I went to visit him where he lived before I moved to Florida
90. I have never been able to bake a decent-looking cake
91. So, I now stick with cupcakes since they taste like cake but are much harder to mess up the presentation with
92. My favorite food is pasta, mostly creamy sauce types
93. I only like to have cheese on my pizza
94. I’m also a big fan of chocolate
95. I hate tomatoes (not tomato sauce, just the actual texture of tomatoes) and onions (unless they’re used strictly for flavoring and are in big enough chunks that I can eat around them) and mushrooms…and probably some other stuff too, I’m a bit of a picky eater
96. From the time I was about 3 until I was 16, I knew that I wanted to be a lawyer
97. I then changed my mind and wanted to become a marine biologist
98. I wanted to work with orcas, or killer whales
99. I went on a orca whale-watching boat tour in Vancouver, B.C., Canada in August 1997
100. It was one of the most memorable experiences of my life that doesn’t involve humans
101. This was a little more difficult than I thought it would be, but I’m glad I did it